It is time to start again

It is really hard sometimes to start again.. I always thought I knew what I wanted to do and then I tried it and it didn't seem the right thing to be spending time on .. strange how you can dream of time to paint all your life.. then the time is available and you try it and it seems wrong .. the heart doesn't sing and paintings looks contrived and you feel a sadness inside .. and it is time to turn a different direction. ..